Thunder crashing, wind and rain
To tear my walls down
I'm only Yours now.
(Jimmy Needham)
The sharp and crushing blow of change can cut through a person at a moment when everything seems fine. And then there is no person.
What was once a laughing, bubbly personality with shoes is now just a stomach full of rocks and a pounding headache.
Many people have moved on in my life. Many people have had to go because their journey was taking them someplace far away or just separate from me. Many people don't have the energy or the strength to face the truth and light in me and so they leave. Once in a while sickness takes people and even if they recover, they don't come back. I have even come to terms with the sad fact that no matter how much or how well I love someone, they just don't always feel the same way or care enough to try. Loss is not new to me.
But it isn't easy. And once in a while the change and the loss all converge and when you make it through to the other side you KNOW you will be something new and your life will be different in ways beyond imagination. So, there is wonder and amazement to be grasped. There is strength to draw on. There is faith to lean on and grow by. There are those who are not going to leave to depend on. And that means there is trust somewhere in there. And letting go with love. And giving thanks for the amazing and wonderful now.
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