Ten years later I find myself healing the heart with the same musical salve.
It's not about the boy but about me. It is not the relationship that determines how to best get your life back, but who you are at your core. I'm made of Counting Crows and Tom Petty and Foo Fighters with a little but of the Fray and Needtobreathe added in for good measure. I can't get enough right now of what makes me ME.
So selfish. So focused on this need to get ahold of the passion and toss about in it like before. Dance like before. Connect like before. Be like before.
I know this experience is changing everything about me just like the last ten years have made me different than I was the first time I laid in the floor of my apartment soaking up Hard Candy. I know it is true. I'll never be 21 again. But I if I can just get myself to remember it well enough, I feel like maybe I can find the path from here a little clearer. It's not a what if - it is a now what.
Every bit of this album is helping me answer this question so don't be surprised to see several more tracks from it driving my upcoming posts.
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